is it really only me?

the sequence of events is almost lost to me. i was going to write my paper and then i'm sitting in the bathroom blowing my nose. i feel like an awful person sometimes...i feel so guilty. so guilty. i have dreamt of you every single night for months, i think about you every day, i miss you all the time. i cant picture myself with anyone else.
i'm happy, but not as happy as i want to be. i wish i could say more...but i cant here. and that annoys me.

[you can spend your whole life building something from nothing
one storm can come and blow it all away
build it anyway
you can chase a dream that seems so out of reach
and you know it might not ever come your way
dream it anyway

god is great but sometimes life aint good
and when i pray it doesnt always turn out like i should
but i do i anyway, yeah i do it anyway

this world's gone crazy
and its hard to believe
that tomorrow will be better than today
believe it anyway
you can love someone with all your heart
for all the right reasons
and in a moment they can .:choose to walk away:.
love them anyway

god is great
but sometimes life aint good
and when i pray it doesnt always turn out like i think it should
but i do it anyway, yeah i do it anyway

you can pour your soul out singing
a song you believe in
that tomorrow they'll forget you ever sang
sing it anyway
yeah sing it anyway
i sing
i dream
i love anyway]

--------------->anyway, martina.