you make me laugh. hysterically in actuality. ha. ha. HAA.

i'm ready to go out and have a good night. and have ryan show me off to everyone he knows. how fun!

i should really work on my stupid graphics final...butttttt--this is way more fun.

procrastination queen at yo service...

i need to get ready.

i'm so a P.Y.T.

get used to it.

i'm feeling a little bit bad ass right now.

ironic.

i guess its ok as long as you have the smaller number to back it up.

thanks, mom. oh wait, you arent my mom.

whatever, i dont have the energy to care about this anymore. maybe i'll move to another country. i dont think anything oculd make me happier.

unless ryan went with me.

sherrill pregnant. funny thought.

yay for nadine's and kelly's birthdays! the cupcakes i made are so pretty!



the weekend was fun! going to the beach at like 5 am was rough, but after a while i woke up and it was good. LOTS of pictures. here are my faves:




ready for spring break like "WHOAAAA!"

and then summer. only 93 days, 12 hours, 43 minutes and 40 seconds baby! not that anyone is keeping track...oh wait. I AM.

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you've got so much love in you, you look like the songs i've heard my whole life comin' true.

i love love love this song. its awesome. download it now. seriously. and if you do and dont like it i dont really care...its great. i want to share the love with someone.

Hats need a beat, like awake needs asleep
Like a pen needs a page, to re-write you need a mistake

Oh, yeah

Hearts need a mind, like a clock needs the time
Like white needs black, if you leave I hope you need to come back

Oh, i swear, i know, i believe it
Oh, i can't stop hearing all the singing
Oh, my soul has never had this feeling
and it feels like gold

You got so much love in you
You got so much love in you
I'm amazed that I'm talkin' to you
You look like the songs that I've heard my whole life coming true

Strike all the bells, hit 'em hard make 'em all yell
Celebrate that you made, lock us up yeah incarcerate oh!

Oh, i swear, i know, i believe it
Oh, i can't stop hearing all the singing
Oh, my soul has never had this feeling
and it feels like so, so

So much love in you
You got so much love in you
I'm amazed that I'm talkin' to you
You look like the songs that I've heard my whole life coming true

i miss you! everytime i see you smile it makes me smile and just....ahhhhhh. i'm just so happy all the time. happy with myself, happy with school even, happy to be with someone as incredible as you are...my life is turning out exactly how i always knew it would. and it's true, once you let go and you just live, when you least expect it, love hits you.

you've got so much love in you.

poetry.

Beannacht
("Blessing")

On the day when
the weight deadens
on your shoulders
and you stumble,
may the clay dance
to balance you.

And when your eyes
freeze behind
the grey window
and the ghost of loss
gets in to you,
may a flock of colours,
indigo, red, green,
and azure blue
come to awaken in you
a meadow of delight.

When the canvas frays
in the currach of thought
and a stain of ocean
blackens beneath you,
may there come across the waters
a path of yellow moonlight
to bring you safely home.

May the nourishment of the earth be yours,
may the clarity of light be yours,
may the fluency of the ocean be yours,
may the protection of the ancestors be yours.
And so may a slow
wind work these words
of love around you,
an invisible cloak
to mind your life.
.



John O'Donohue
~ Echoes of Memory ~ 

after 20 years it's still going strong.

so..the top 10 videos on iTunes are:

1. Thriller-Michael Jackson

....and the rest dont matter.

seriously? thats incredible...nevrmind his personal life. that video is over twenty years old and it's in the number one spot--beating all current videos. that says a lot.

you're absolutely insane.

driving up here at like 5 am just to see me for a few hours because i'm sick is ridiculous. you're insane. you didnt even get sleep. ad you have to work tonight. but you did it, and brought me medicine and gatorade that i half finished and hearts and you're incredible. and i feel like i've known you for years, and i dont really know what it is or how to describe it but its just different. you're different. and this is different. and thats the best thing i could ever ask for.

And i thought, be still my heart, this could be a brand new start with you.

this was the best weekend i think i've ever had. you make me so happy...ha, i just. i cant even explain it. lord, its just..different. thats the only word i can think of. different, and amazing.

i cant wait until thursday. and then friday, and then saturday, and then sunday, and then valentine's day, and then the next weekend and the next and the next.....ahhh.

So brown eyes I hold you near
Cause you’re the only song I want to hear
A melody softly soaring through my atmosphere

------------------> soul meets body.death cab for cutie.