smile for the camera you super model you

busy busy busy! first the tennis match in "gainsville", yummy turkey sandwich and MMM broccoli and cheddar soup...ohh yeahhh, pedicures and make up at the mall...man tara and i are goddesses! all i need now is a mansion, my own assistant, and my own clothes line and i could be paris hilton...or...not...hmm i can dream :)

mandy moore is so amazing...she has the most beautiful voice and shes so classy--not some computer slut, and she sings real songs...not ohh baby your so hot and i wanna have sex right now ohh my mascaras running blah blah blah...hmm yes i thought i'd voice that opinion

i'll let everyone know how winter formal went asap, be checking for photographs of moui and the girls...it will be quite a show!

just wanted to see how this whole "lets update my journal from an IM...bc that makes sense, since oyu must be online to do it this or the normal way" whatever haha
and i just discovered that my font is orange, like the background...so just highlight above this to read the rest...one point for kristina...

Umm--yeah can you hand me my Louis?

Tis been quite an interesting few days if i do say so myself...which--naturally i do. i have just returned from participating as "spectator" (the official title) at a most envigorating display of athleticism...chad "the hottie with the body" prizzia's soccer game against...the DEVILS! (go stanton) quite entertaining even if you despise soccer, as i myself do. and the cute "little" kid got to play too..who was about 4'3 and 16...hmm i felt dumb after that one...

so yeah the bk winter formal is on saturday and i am quite ecstatic being as i didnt attend this superficial affair the previous year. i'm so over those snotty dooney and bourke carrying, edge city wearing brats...aka sluts...at school..i'm ready to just go hang out with the few sane ones and have myself a grand ole' time shakin' on the dance floor...and possi-bl(eye) finding myself a man friend..haha right keep dreaming..but thats ok, because as stated in my last journal---i dont need boys..so there..god i want one..i mean..man am i craving a chocolate chip brownie...ohhh it makes me happy to just think about it..enough randomness...tara--i am quite looking forward to meeting the "famous" jeremy...even though i already know his address and have yet to meet him..ahem another story...and watching his tennis match before we run off to bobbi brown to get beautified for the dance...looking forward to that one too....ah i will be sure to post some sexy pictures of the C'est Magnifique asap, until then...be happy, love life, and the people in it...

much love as always,

plan "x"

ps- AHH i love it! it will help me bring out my fiery passionate side...haha natalie...hmm

Sing Praise, Sing Praise...

I have seen the light. I think I am finally comming to terms with my extremely dispicable luck with the opposite sex. I mean sure, I would love to be dating someone; I love the feeling that I have someone who cares a lot about me and have a great time with, the romanticism...i'm a big romantic if you didnt know that already...but I mean obviously having made it this far--roughly 2 years--without that, I mean come on...I can handle it a bit longer, or until the perfect person for me suddenly comes out of no where...and I run into him in the dog food isle at winn dixie one day aimlessly walking around trying to find the cereal...

So any way back to the real purpose of the "enlightening" journal...Yes, I would love a boyfriend considering all the wonderful things that come out of that type of relationship...and I wouldnt feel so awkward when every sinlge..and i mean every single one of my really close friends has a boyfriend or has someone that likes them and you know they arent dating yet...and i dont have anyone.  Youre right tara, i dont need a guy to tell me how wonderful or beautiful i am no matter how much i'd want to hear it, because i have friends for that...i have amazing friends who lift my spirits so very high sometimes that i feel i should look down if i want to look toward heaven...

so, moral of the story: I..no excuse me...NO girl needs a guy to tell her he loves her, she's beautiful, or amazing...girls have friends, who are guys or girls, to tell them that, and if you're friends dont...get new ones!  we all want the fairytale..myself especially included, but i mean realistically most people dont have it...or just dont find it for a while...and think about it...when you least expect it BOOM! the perfect guy for you will come into your life...so just be patient, enjoy your single life now, one day..haha you might just miss it somewhere in the abyss of your unconscious...

for more richly philosophical thoughts and ideas, come back tomorrow--you never know what you'll find...

much love to all

plan "x"

writing--my emotional de-tox

so, this is a rare occourance...3..no 4 journals in one day...man i am addicted

so i've been talking with one of my really good friends, and he's been having...not girl issues i wouldnt say..but a bit of romantic constipation when talking to her if you'd like to get diagnostic about it...and he's been having trouble sorting out all of his thoughts and such. so naturally, i told him to do what i do, as anyone does when giving advice...i told him to write down all of his thoughts, just anything that pops into his mind; just jot it down then read over the and try to make sense of it all

what i realized is, thats what i do...obviously since i just said that a minute ago, but i never really realized how much writing all my thoughts and emotoins down helps me deal with stuff, i rely so much on this venting. i got me thinking about if i never did this.man i'd be in one crap load of an emotional hell let me tell you.  this truly is my de-tox..i get all of my junk out here and before this in my own journal in my room...sometimes i go back and read from a year or two ago, at the things that so consumed my thoughts, and how most of it i dont even think about or even remember anymore...how dumb and pointless it all is in a few months...so, just dont lose sight of whats really important, the here and now is just that....now..in a week or a month or even a year whatever your stressed about wont even be an issue for you, so dont worry about the little things and try to live as happily and peacefully as possible.......and get there using any means you need to....for example...writing your thoughts in a journal....

the music that shapes my heart, kindles my spirit, and touches my heart

In no particular order, the bands and their songs that rock my mind...

1. Mercy Me: I can only Imagine, Cannot say enough, All fall down, Word of God speak, All because of this, Crazy, Spoken for

2. Third Day: My offering, God of Wonders, Take from me my life

3. Lifehouse: Everything, Sick cycle Carousel, Breathing, Somewhere in between

4. Edwin McCain: I'll be

5. Al Jarreau: Since I fell for you

6. Johnny Hartman: The nearness of you

7.Frank Sinatra: Thinking of you

8.Switchfoot: Meant for so much more, Only Hope, Learning to breathe

9.Jennifer Diebler: In the Calm

10.Mandy Moore: Have a little Faith, Breaking us in two, Can we still be friends, ONly Hope

11.Michael McDonald: Ain't no mountain high enough, All is fair in love, I'm gonna make you love me

12. Ginny Owens: If you want me to

there are a lot more but those are pretty high up on the list as of yet...maybe it can give some insight into my inner thoughts and why they come out the way they do..

 

Ahh...Home sweet..er..new home

ARGH!! i thought i would start off my new--and continued from KGangel22--journal with a little RAGE...if you read the last entry from my other jrounal...you know kristina is quite frusterated and on the edge..but i mean hey if you hadnt...and weren't an idiot...you'd know that too since the mood up theres (^) says i am frusterated..but i wont make fun of you right now seeing how i am just so..so..hmm discombobulated at the moment i cant get my thoughts out, much less patronize stupid people for the simple reason that they are infact nimrods who cant read.

OFF that subject...and on to a more light-hearted and perhaps sunny subject..

*Tara*  you definitely, beyond a shadow of a doubt made my day glow.  i know i tell you all the time, but i love you so much and your are one of my very best friends; you're always there when i need you and you can get me through whatever junk cruds up my life, and i can share all the wonderful events of my beautifully blessed life with you too. i hope you know that no matter what happens or how alone you feel...i am always here for you and you can come to me with any problem...big or small, silly or serious, happy or sad.  you are BEAUTIFUL!