cold cold water surrounds me now
and all i've got is your hand
lord can you hear me now?
or am i lost?
no one's daughter allow me that
and I can't let go of your hand
l o r d ,   c a n   y o u   h e a r   m e   n o w ?
or am i lost?
[don’t you know i love you]
and I always have
hallelujah
will you come with me?
cold cold water surrounds me now
and all i've got is your hand
lord.. can you hear me?
or am i lost?

i can't take my eyes off of you

Still a little bit of your taste in my mouth
Still a little bit of you laced with my doubt
Still a little harder to say what's going on

Still a little bit of your ghost, your witness
Still a little bit of your face I haven't kissed
You step a little closer each day
That I can’t say what's going on

Stones taught me to fly
Love, taught me to lie
Life taught me to die
So it's not hard to fall
When you float like a cannonball

Still a little bit of your song in my ear
Still a little bit of your words I long to hear
You step a little closer to me
So close that I can't see what's going on

you're the best thing that's ever happened to me, i know it's for real. no one has ever made me laugh, smile, get chills, giggle like a kid, made me feel this beautiful, made me so happy ever. we just have fun and i love you.

new art

the latest of my works...

1. oil on canvas

2. graphite on paper--Natalie Wood

 

enjoy.

then she kissed him back, giving him everything, and the voice in his head said THIS ONE

i dont have much to say.

i did another painting over the weekend. i thouroughly enjoy this one--this one's good. if i can get the picture i took of it, i'll put it on here.

my senior quite is: "I like to be a free spirit. Some don't like that, but that's just how I am." princess diana

i think it fits.

.:Beauty, to me, is about being comfortable in your own skin. That, or a kick-ass red lipstick:.

--gwenyth paltrow

i never knew i had it in me

when certain things in your life hit a bump in the road, you realize how lucky you are to have them at all. here's to all the bumps ahead...it's worth it if you're with me.

i sketched a woman the other day in my new sketchbook for art portfolio. i have to admit, i never, ever thought i could draw squat. i didnt go into it expecting much. i was wrong. i mean, i did use a scale to help proportion everything so it doesnt count as much...but it's still pretty damn good if you ask me. or my momma and daddy. i started Ms. Hepburn last night as well...it'sot as spectacular, but she's comming along.

i dont have much to say, but i feel the need to let you in on the small daily endeavirs if my life--i suppose that is the reason i write. until tomorrow...

.:there are certain shades of limelight that can wreck a girl's complexion:.

breakfast at tiffany's

maybe i wont die afterall

so, maybe school wont be as wretched as i thought. which is good. i keep seeing carl around school and he looks really upset, which makes me sad because we were friends last year...and we wont get a chance to talk probably at all now. hm. but everything else is fine...it looks like it'll be a smooth-sailing year....no real tough classes. my biggest troubles will probably be english (doubtful) and gov't. psychology too--i didnt get greene which made me sad; i loved her.

i love my art class. holechek is awesome; she's so fun. it's really going to be an awesome course...i hope i get a lot out of it. i'm already having fun just messing with my sketchbook. : )

things are going pretty well for me. the outside is looking bright. i just hope the inside brightens up too.

.:there is nothing more alarming than the secrets hidden just below the surface:.

...just a recent observation of mine

take your own advice he says, and my mind stops instantly

     i wish you could see what i see in you, and i wish you could find happiness somewhere. i hope that you allow yourself to find peace, to give yourself the opportunity to take your focus off of what you dont have, and onto what is there. i pray that you'll find the talents God has given you, and i hope that you cherish them and use them to better yourself and others. i know there is a happier, more at peace person somewhere inside you, and all i want is for you to discover it. allow yourself to be great--you can make a difference. know you've made a difference for me.

 

there's nothing better than lazy cops and illegal fireworks at 1 am

it's been too long. i miss you all. SORheads was good all except for that lovely cold i had. damn sicknesses.

our fireworks were perfect! mmm...it was so awesome. we rock--c/o '06 forever.

so, school begins in two days...the last first day of school. its weird to think i have one year left and i'm out. it's not going to be any different from every other year i've ever spent in school, but, at the same time it will be. i hope the few strong friendships i've managed to make hold up under all the pressure...i'll need them now more than ever.

i guess what  need to do is have no fear. it seems that i'm always afraid. about everything...i'm afraid of the dark, of the bugs in the garage, of hurting everyone, of letting people down, of being let down, of losing the person who's finally made a difference, of missing out on something, of not doing enough...of everything.

its going to be important this year to be strong. not to compromise my morals for anyone or anything. i'm weak when it comes to things like that--i try to please people so its hard not to do things i'm pressured to even though i know it isnt best for me. i just finished dealing with that and i need to be strong for ymself. i'm happy when i'm doing whats best for me, i refuse to let it happen again. prayers for strength like that are appreciated.

i love that you're always there, and even though we have our downs, most of what we have is up. i love you.

.:a man can change his stars:.

--a knight's tale