have you ever just felt...compelled?

i dont know why i'm here. i dont know what i'm going to say. compulsion is a strong affliction.

i was talking with a friend today. he asked a simple enough question. "how are you?" and my response was, "mostly ok" then..the natural "what isnt ok" and i had to ponder a response. i think i let me mind take over my life at times--if that makes sense. i tend to over-analyze things, think out the simplest problems with mathematical accuracy--ironic since i hate math. i dont know, i just seem to worry over nothing. but it kind of hit me and stuck. i said talked about it and how i dont like thinking so much, and his response was, "You say it like its a bad thing" you're way of slamming me into reality never ceases to amaze me.

angel without wings?

love. i can barely stand the word any longer. it's always on the tip of my tongue. i seemed to be engulfed in love. i can't turn where it isnt around me. a blessing. but also, it is a curse. how can it be all around me, at all times, and i still cant recognize it in myself? how can one not know if they feel love if its all they ever see?

.:I could sing of Your love forever, Lord:.