my love, my muse

today was such an amazing day. it was beautiful.

sunshine is my most favoritest thing ever. ever. driving home in the sunshine, laying out in the sunshine, eating fried chicken and biscuits, singing. drinking frappucinos and laughing...seeing white boys act black. its a beautiful thing. haha. but not a single bad thing happened today. i got a tan, i have confidence in myself for the first time in...maybe ever. thank you for that, you gave me a love greater than any human love i've known...a love for myself. i cant ever repay you for what you've given me.

i wish i could relive today over...thats how nice it was. it was one of the best days of my life. just simple. no stress, no worries, nothing to bring me down. i was in the clouds...and then, the clincher. everyone telling everyone else how wonderful they are. encouragement, even in three words, is such an amazingly powerful gift.

being told i'm inspiring, commited....things i dont use to descirbe myself...it was nice to hear. just hearing people tell me that i'm nice or that i'm funny or i have a nice voice brings a smile to my face and i want to thank everyone for your kind words. they mean more than you may realize.

.:i wish you could just get hit in the head or pinched. just have a physical, tangible sign that you're in love. trying to figure out if you are or not is just so damn hard:.