life is ironic.

all i have to say is....welcome to my mutha ______ life. maybe NOW you'll understand.


.:an original

i close         
my eyes         
and i see        
that what i dreamed was just make believe.

then i squeeze,        
and my anger falls
just the way it always does:     
down my cheek,        
in a warm, damp stream.

i just wanna scream, 
i dont want the world to see me this way.
to fall on my knees,
begging god please just take this away.

so i push
the thought
of you
to the back of my mind
just to see a piece
of what you used to be
pass me by...

no matter how hard i try
you always catch me by surprise.
i can feel just fine,
then the sharp disbelief grabs me by the side
and i cant fight the hurt it cuts deep inside.

i just wanna scream, 
i dont want the world to see me this way.
to fall on my knees,
begging god please just take this away.

so i lay
down to sleep
hoping please
God, let you be just a memory.

because
i cant fake
my smile anymore
no i cant pretend
i'm ok this time.

i just wanna scream, 
i dont want the world to see me this way.
to fall on my knees,
begging god please just take this away.