be fearless.

^ that was on a dove wrapper i found yesterday. i should try to be more like that. i'm not  fearless....pretty afraid usually. but i dont want to be.

i've realized you're never going to change. you're immature, thats ok, you dont exactly know better. you hate me. whatever. thats ok too i guess, i dont love it but i can live with it. you bitch about me when i'm not there, and actually, probably when i AM there as well. awesome. it really hurts my feelings and probably always will, since i didnt really do anything to deserve it but, i'm sick of giving a shit about what you say and think. i've tried everything in the world to make things right and nothing has proven successful. thats ok too. but i'm not going to let you control my happiness anymore. so have fun trying to make everyone i love and who cares about me hate me, have fun talking about how i ruined your life and how miserable i make you, have fun spreading rumors and trying to get everyone on your side....have fun-------------->because i'm not going anywhere.

i hope one day you find your happiness and realize you never had to be this sad. i never wanted you to end up as sad as i was. it kills me that you have become what i was. you'll be ok in the end i think, maybe you'll see the light one day.