...and the bride wore white

i really wasn't looking forward to tonight; sex is sex and they teach the same stuff and i was tired of hearing about it. i know God willed me to go tonight for a purpose.  i had an "epiphany" if you will. i mean i always knew this stuff deep down, i jut never really gave it much though, or rather cared enough to sit down and do something about it. just bc you aren't "penetrated" doesnt mean the things you do arent sexual. oral, anal, and vaginal sex are ALL STILL SEX. if you ever for one second question where you should draw the line physically, think about which things you're unsure about doing. its simple: if you aren't sure, you are not ready and even if you think you are you shouldnt be doing it. i'm more sure now about the things i will and will not do with any guy in any situation before i'm married. this is me, i feel extremely vulnerable and insecure going past making out with any guy and i'm not willing to put myself in that situation or frame of mind just to please someone else. i am better than that and have more self respect than that. i know everyone beats in into our heads that sex is special and its only fullly experienced in marriage when you fully understand what it means and can be free from the consequences of it. i cannot seriously and honestly see myself marrying any man who is not in love with the Lord. there would be a gigantic void in our relationship. i need someone who will comfort me not only from a normal husband-like stanpoint, but spiritually nurture me too. just my thoughts tonight. love yourself, try to forgive others as i am struggling with right now, take responsibility for your actions, love God, be the beautiful person God made you and meet me back here, same time, same place.