true beauty is accomplished by pure joy

tara hess...i LOVE you.  he...likes...ME...whoa.  i can barely fathom it.  ernie likes me.  SOMEONE likes me. someone I LIKE--likes me back.  i am in a surreal place...but if i could stay here forever i would be happy.  man, all i want is that time on wednesday...i have to have it.  we need to get to know each other better...but man...he is so...i cant describe it, so...adorable maybe? that doesnt do him justice...but just know he is wonderous and i cant wait until i can see him again.  he has made me happy...HAPPY...for the first time in weeks...he doesnt even know it.  that is what is so beautiful.