ok, so i totally wrote this last night, but it didnt save, as most of my journals dont. i have to copy them before i save them most times, and paste them into a new entry--suffice it to say it annoys me, as most everything in this world does. i should work on that....patience is a virtue means nothing to me....its a quality i do not posess--something unattainable for me...i see it in others and even THAT annoys me. but then again, when stupid rude people who are nosy and have no friends and call you a brat and basically just annnoy the living CRAP out of you who act like your mom try to be patient--it takes all my self control--which i realized i have a plethera of--not to slap them in the face.
on a lighter note.....
this--or i should say last evening was pretty good...if i do say so myself. ziti is so good...mmm. props to mom for making it pretty much after i scalded myself. dont ask. and by the way--people who have to steal bandaids from winn dixie should just take the whole freaking box, instead of taking the bandaids OUT of the box and leaving it there for innocent and unknowing people to buy later on...paying for an empty box. THANKS. ok so that cake was amazing...not pretty,but it tasted so good....confetti icing really is the best.
i'm really not looking forward to school starting up again....i mean if i had actually gotten a decent schedule, teachers i wanted, lunches with people i actually knew, or a parking spot i could actually find....it MIGHT be different. but i dont know anyone, for classes or lunch, so i'll basically be a wlkaing hermit this year. i'm too shy to actually talk to people. (for those of you who know me well--try not to laugh TOO hard at this embarassing fact of my life) Yes, Kristina, Queen of the Skeptics, is afraid to talk to people, mostly impart i would believe, because it would mean letting people into my world and making myself vulnerable. something i do not do. you know what i mean...we already talked about it...not in this context but in general. anyways, i hope this year will turn out a million times etter than i am currently anticipating....or just fly by like last year. and i hope i dont flunk out either....with algebra which i suck at, anatmoy which will kill me, and spanish IV which i wont be able to understand on my plate...i think my eyes were inexplicably larger than my stomach. in any case, prayer will be a life line for me this year. wow, that makes it sound like it wasnt before---you know what i mean.
--How do I know what could have been, is what should have been? or what wasn't, is what was best?--
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Well, even though my thoughts can not be as so nicely put onto paper id like to say what a true story and id like to tell you that even though things might get you down you do have a wonderful ability to control your....lets just say meanness...which is a great attibute of a person and even though i feel like i dont really know you that well, even though your my cousin, i feel that you really deal with your life very well.Like you have said that your "shy" i believe thats not true but what do i know?...i mean for as long as ive known you (not too long it feels like even though its not true) you have been a very cool person and very open...i just wish i could have gotten to know you and all my other family members way over in florida.
P.S.--all of your....articles...are such unbelieveable poetry for the heart....and it has inspirered me to strive in what i do and not waste away...also its restored my faith. Thanks, your loving cousin, Nathan
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