4.1.05

i wanna tear down the walls that hold me inside

today didnt start off well at all.  i got up too early i guess and ended up at school by 7:15...i usually dont even leave by then. so i chilled in my car and read The Count of Monte Cristo.

 

mm...so started this journal yesterday and am now just getting around to completing it.  dont remember what i was going to say either. so--my birthday is in one month and one week...thats exciting.

--and he tells eveyrone a story cuz he thinks his life is boring and he fights so you wont ignore him, cuz thats his biggest fear, and he cries but you'll rarely see him do it, and he loves but he's scared to use it, so he hides behind the music cuz he likes it that way. and he knows that he's so much more than worthless, he needs to find the surface cuz he's...starting to get nervous. hes calling out to you this is a call, this is a callout cuz everytime i fall down, i reach out to you, and i'm losin all control now and my hazard signs are all out i'm askin you to show me what this love is all about.  have you ever felt this way before, cuz i dont wanna hide here anymore, take me to a place where nothin's wrong and thanks for callin shut the door, and they say someone out there sees us, so if you're real then save me Jesus cuz i've been this way for far too long i wasnt meant to feel alone.  .:Five for Fighting:.--

2 comments:

Anonymous said...

actually i believe its thousand foot krutch who sings that song....

Anonymous said...

indeed em, you are correct...never trust tara. she never gets the bands right...actually this was the only time.

gosh am i getting proven wrong a lot recently--and david henderson kows exactly how i feel about THAT.