i want to be what you always needed

the smile from those days, a product of your silly ways. the light was bright enough to blind, now its all but left behind.  the walls i built were soon torn down, but now they're so high its hard to see 'round.  too many tears were cried...sometimes you wish you'd never even tried.  a glimmer through the cracks in my soul...they fill the space and i begin to feel whole.  you realize the memories encourage a laugh, but i know i'll never go back.

.:an original

a new year. have you ever noticed how beautiful new things are? how absolutely amazing the smell of new crayons is? or how fresh the smell of warm towels out of the dryer are? the way you feel right after a nice long shower? the crisp pages of a new book, complete with the minute shreds of paper still lingering between its unexplored pages....newness is revitalizing. refreshing. rewarding.

empty optomistic fantasies are nice, but actually having the change to change your life...being on a .:clean:. slate is such an amazing thing. and it comes every 365 days like clockwork. this year will be better...not by excerising more or drinking more water, praying more, being a better person, or just MORE anything...all you need to do is one simple thing. just one tiny thing everyday to be happier with yourself.

never, ever let anyone .: rob you of your joy :.

thats it, thats all. none of those other things are bad, i plan on doing them all myself but the main focus shouldnt be on what you do or dont do, but how you PERCEIVE the things around you. you're reactions...its no picnic and its hard. but just think...happiness? its so worth the effort.

--we're at the top of the world, you and i we got a lotta time and it sure feels right cuz you reached in your pocket, and pulled out a pass that says you can take me anywhere. we're on the top of the world, we got a lotta time and it sure feels right cuz i'm up here running behind you, i'm up here running in repeat.--

.It was a beautiful day
Don't let it get away
Beautiful day

Touch me
Take me to that other place
Reach me
I know I'm not a hopeless case

What you don't have you don't need it now
What you don't know you can feel it somehow
What you don't haveyou don't need it now
Don't need it now
Was a beautiful day