constant reminders

this weekend turned out to be better than once previously excpected. isnt it nice when that happens? heh--that was funny....you know what i'm talking about :)

i found this shirt at american eagle yesterday...it says "let your soul shine" it was irionic because i got a few emails the day before from friends and when i replied to them, i ended them both with [you'll shine]  i guess thats my new cheer up and stop being so gosh danged depressed. who knows if it'll work or not...i'm trying to be more positive. so far so good--but its only been like....24-ish hours.

i just want to take the opportunity to tell everyone how much i adore my parents. most kids arent very close, or even on speaking terms, with their parents which i dont understand. i'd die without them. they do everything in the world for me and always want me to be happy. they just pretty much rock and i love them.

its so hard to be your own person in our generation. i've heard a lot of people say there isnt any peer pressure....but i think theres even pressure to say that. i mean, subtle as it may feel...its everywhere. how many times do you hear or see people making fun of/being made fun of for not fitting in for whatever reason? all the time, everyday. i try not to let other people's ideas on how to live affect what i do, and for the most part i think i'm prety good at doing what i want and avoiding what i dont. i just think its so important for, if for no other reason, be confident inyour decisions and not rely on the "cool" perception thats out there in our society. its all instant graitification and personal pleasure over all else...i dont think its healthy. why else are there more obese kids now than ever before? gluttony....and it isnt even necessarily their fault...one order of anything at a restaurant is alomst always enough to feed two--its such a waste of food to give people tiwce what they need when you know less than half those people eat their left-overs...

anyway..off that tangent. i have become quite idstracted in that last 15 minutes.  i think the only other thing i had to say was that i applied to SCAD. exciting.

make your soul shine*

I waited for you today
But you didn't show
No no.
I needed you today
So where did you go?
You told me to call
Said you'd be there
And though I haven't seen you
Are you still there?

I cried out with no reply
And I can't feel you by my side
So I'll hold tight to what I know
You're here and I'm never alone

And though I cannot see you
And I can't explain why
Such a deep reassurance
You've placed in my life.
We cannot separate
'Cause you're part of me.
And though you're invisible
I'll trust the unseen.