the sounds of my life

soundtracks. there are always soundtracks in movies. they're a given, almost essential in building up drama, adding suspense, creating romance. we all have them too, they just play a little quieter in our minds.

lie in our graves: dave matthews.

-i love it because of the enormous instrumental solo in the middle. piano, drum, violin, it is fabulous. the piano is my favorite. it makes me happy, calms me down, soothes my soul. i never get tired of it. it makes me want to go on, so i can listen to it one more time.

music of the heart:nsync and gloria estefan.

-the words. letting someone know how they touched you. how they changed your life forever, and how they probably never even knew it happened. thats amazing to me. never forget to tell people how they've shaped you, it will shape them too.

jane be jane: ben folds.

-it's ok to be exactly who you are, dont try to change yourself for someone else, because if they dont love 'you' than they arent worth having around.

love song for no one: john mayer.

-because i sympathize. i want to not just be in love, i want ot be loved. i want to find whoever i'm meant to be with because i know how happy they will make me.

dreaming with a broken heart: john mayer.

-because i sympathize. waking up from a dream and realizing its not true is heart wrenching, and its happened to me for months at a time. and it was never true. and then when it was true it was gone in a flash. it is the most miserable feeling ever to wake up filled with hope that yes, today is the day i've waited for, only to realize you made it all up in your head. you cant let go.

more than a feeling: boston.

-it just makes you feel good.

pride in the name of love: U2

-hope. it gives me hope. and i love to sing it with bryan and david. :)

i need you: leann rimes.

-because we all need someone to believe in, and we need to be able to admit it. this reminds me that i do need something no matter how much i pretend i can stand alone. no one can and i need to remember that.

hit me with your best shot: pat benetar.

-to remind myself no matter how easy it is to feel sorry for myself, i am a tough broad. i can handle myself and i can make myself ok again, no matter how many times some jerk or many jerks hurt me. besides, i always have natalie to fall back on if i forget.

crawling in the dark: hoobastank.

-because i dont understand God at all most times. usually ever. and maybe i'm just not supposed to, but i have a hard time accepting Him and He comes. i don't like being in the dark and i feel i am most of the time. i wish i could understand why things happen the way they do.

there are more, but at the moment thats what i have. its something to think about.

.:"...and he'll kiss your face in the moonlight as you sit in front of your enormous lake, because who doesnt have an enormous lake in their front yard? yes, will we have our mr darcy, ad we wont have to wish we had someone like that. he'll be ours.":.