alonefortheholidays.

this is the one reason i hate the holidays. i am always alone. no matter what. and its depressing. i dont like shopping and seeing gross couples runing around being all...in love. and making out in barnes and noble. go to books a million if you want to do that. seriously.

i'm kind of over waiting. i pretty much havenever been good at it, and i've been doing so long in this respect that i just want to scream at God and ask Him why He's making things so damn difficult. i fall in love and then its gone. i get over it and find someone new and it doesnt work out. or the timing is off. or the distance is off. or the situation isn't...right. and i'm so damn tired of feeling like the odd person out. always. i cannot name a single close friend that isn't/hasn't had someone...for at least a year. seriously. and they always want to bring their boyfriends along. cool. good for you. you got someone. whoopie. i dont care. [i realize this sounds immature.whatever. does it look like i care? exactly.]

i want him. and i want him now. and why the HELLLLLL is my spacebar notworking. ahhhhhhhhhhhi hate this damn thing. what the..
moving on. i want the support, the friend, the closeness, the constant companion. i dont want to hot party date,the arm candy, the showman. i want the forever. and i dont think that that is too much to ask. i really dont. i want to be in love and have it work out for once. i just want the be in love, and be loved.

this is the loneliest time of...everything.


.:slow down girl your not going anywhere
just wait around and see
maybe I am much more you never no what lies ahead
I promise I can be anyone I can be anything
just because you were hurt doesn't mean you shouldn't bleed
I can be anyone anything I promise I can be what you need :.

---------------->secondhand serenade.