the sunshine is back my dear.

[	mood	|	happy	]
[	music	|	Sunglasses At Night by Corey Hart	]

I'm so happy that my sunshine and I are talking again.

I missed her.
<3

i wish that were actually true, and i didnt feel like you wanted to murder me every time i walked by you. i wonder if you realize that yes, you hurt me by hating me and spreading it around to everyone you know, but that your hurting yourself so much more? no one can survive being consumed with so much hate. it isnt what God intended.

i really feel like this is a new begining. i feel like a new book is being opened, fresh and clean white pages, unfilled and undiscovered. i have no future, but the hope for it is so grand. no one has told me what i will be or what i can do, only God and i can decide that. and it hurts to see someone i loved and was so close to so full of hate bt i cant change that, you are who you are and you've chosen what you've chosen...and i cant alter it. so i'm going to hold my head up and live my new beautiful life, and try to remember that i did everything i could to reconcile. i dont want to waste another second of my time being sad about you. so i'm going to remind myself every day that i have someone worth living for...myself. and other people that hold me up, keep me moving, make me smile with their lame jokes :), and i have You to turn to in my times of confusion, and You wont ever leave me or lead me astray. i feel like i'm finally finding out who You really are and what that means for my life. that we are making amends, well, I am making amends, You never left me. and i love You for that.

i can see You up ahead, i can almost see the lines on Your face.

"all of You is more than enough for all of me, for every thirst and every need. You satisfy me with Your love, and all i have in You is more than enough."

barlowgirl.