feeling better.

a few hours ago i wanted to strngle you. i just feel betrayed, i feel humiliated because i believed all the crap you peddled at me, i feel used. part of me still wants to just hurt you.

but the biger part has finally realized i just dont give a F***! i dont. i'm so incredibly tired of all your crap. you used me out of boredom. i think at some point you were a nice person but i'm not sure where it went.

and i can finally cut you out of my life because i don't need you. you're toxic. i dont know why we all crave the toxic people in our lives but mostly we do and i dont crave you anymore.

i have so many more things in my life to focus my energy on, things that matter, PEOPLE who matter. people i love. someone who loves me. this is such a good feeling mostly because i know that a few years ago there's no way i could have looked at this situation with such perspective. i'm proud. and laughing at you.


i'll be very interested to see how the next few months go though, better make some pop!corn because i have a feeling it'll be one helluva show......