hair blowing, heart racing, she knew it was a perfect day

woke up just in time to get ready for church...thanks for the wake up call God...totally knew i forgot to set the alarm.  SS was good. temptaion is something i think we dont even realize is around at points. off to the beach after we escaped like felons....that was cool.  haha, driving around BK half naked in a bikini was so weird, i felt like i was going to get into trouble for not having a shirt on.  it was exciting...living on the edge...for the girl who never takes risks.  it was big

the beach was beautiful. we got close and let the windows down, the salty breeze is fantastic. its my favorite smell in the world. its so exhilerating.  lying there under the sun, hearing the waves crashing in around me...the breeze of a perfect day.  the sound of mexicans speaking slurred spanish in hushed tones. how could it not be fantastic? haha. mm ice cream after. talk about subtley perfect refreshment.

holy cow i'm so incredibly pumped about winter retreat it isnt even funny. seriously. i'm about to crap my pants with excitement for lack of a more appropriate phrase. i hope it snows, i really really do. that would be beautiful. : )  i really pray though that everyone can take something away. i think its going to be a spectacular trip with a lot of opportunity to be still and really focus.  and be totally an insane amount of fun.  good things are bound to happen...i know it!  i hope i dont get distracted by anyone or anything, i need prayers for my focus to remain on God and not on other things in my life. soo if you could manage a prayer or two, i'd appreciate it.

 i also feel like i have an amazing chance to share God with someone else by being in praise band. i feel like its an annoyance for some people to do things like that--practicing all the time and rehersing. i love it--i adore it. it is one of the many church related highlights of my week.  i mean, singing is my outlet, its what i do and i do it well. i know i do. and performing is the most awesome feeling in general, not to mention that i can share God with everyone who hears. i'm not a good speaker and i'm not good at talking about God with people i dont know so i feel like this is my chance to make a difference for someone. to touch someone through song. music is such a beautiful thing.  it's when and where i feel closest to God. a powerful touching song will get me everytime.  Justin McRoberts, i think he is who we listen to during our major sessions thats so peaceful and i break down everytime. something in his songs is always so relevant to my life and the songs are just so relaxing? worshipful?  i dont know...they and many other more serious, quiet, powerful songs put me in such a worshipful place. i love the way just listening to someone sing about their love for Christ can just bring me to my knees (proverbially speaking, sometimes literally) in praise and adoration. music is lovely.

.:I waited for You today, but You didn't show...no no no.  I needed You today, so where did you go?  You told me to call, said You'd be there.  And though I haven't seen You, are You still there?  I cried out with no reply, I can't feel You by my side. So I'll hold tight to what I know, You're here--and I'm never alone.  And though I cannot see You, and I can't explain why such a deep deep reassurance You've placed in my life.  We cannot seperate--cuz Your part of me. And though Your invisible I trust in the unseen. I cried out with no reply, I can't feel You by my side. So I'll hold tight to what I know, You're here--and I'm never alone:.