emotional uncertainties

She looks into my eyes and i'm alive again
And when she says goodbye, I just die again
That's when my restlessness begins
Please don't let it win
I'm so [tired] again
But underneath the haze
One thing still remains the same

She's the only love I've known
And now she's gone away
She's the light that brought me to the -edge-
Will i ever love again?

She walked into my life and my world was still
She .:reached into my soul and all my doubts were killed:.
That's when my loneliness subsided
She gave me the will,
I could fight it
But nothing can erase the one thing that remains the same

She's the only love I've known
And now she's gone away
She's the light that brought me to the edge
Will i ever love again?

So just tell me what i should do
I left everything for you
And i can't hardly breathe
'Cause i know i lost you from my world
From my...

She's the only love I've known
And now she's gone away
She's the light that brought me to the edge
Will i ever love again?

She's the only love I've known
And now she's gone away
She's the light that brought me to the edge
Will i ever love again??

 

the icing on the cake.  i'm so scared about Sunday.  i need Your help Lord, even though i can't feel You and You feel so far away--i know i'll never get through Sunday without You.  please give me the strength i need to do what i need to do.  thank You for giving me the tools to help me work through my problems.  You've given me encouragement in the familiar and the unexpected, the knowledge that even though i'm lost that You havent deserted me, and enough hope to try and see if i can beat this. my feelings of abandonment, isolation, and loneliness are only temporary.  You also blessed me with a searching heart Lord, one that yearns to be with You and know You intimately.  i know that although i may feel small and forgotten, i have the most precious gift of all: parents and friends who love me--even if i am oblivious to their love at times.  i never meant to hurt anyone.  i never meant to cause anyone else pain or suffering or worry.  i just don't really know precisely what's ailing me and how to fix it.  i have the courage to try though--that's something i know is special and unique.  i pray that you bless all those people who i love so dearly, but especially the ones You and i know especially need Your healing. please guide and be with those who also feel lost and alone; give them the reassuring peace that i know i will also find.  watch over us God--guide us back to Your loving arms.

i love You-

-the broken one