i feel like i've been erased. my memory apparently never brought anything but depression and frusteration--so i was wiped out. clean. easy. efficient. i'm sorry that i caused you so much pain; sorry life was so bad for you with me in it. i hope someday that could change...that maybe you'll feel like you were happy when i was around one day. i wont hold my breath--but deep in the corner of my mind, i'm attatched to you. like it or not.
bucketball, i must say, is probably the best game ever invented. i'm a huge fan. my knees are not, sadly. haha--i guess being beastly doesnt always work out for everyone. i have a new hole in the other leg of my famed "kristina, there's a hole in your jeans" jeans, and three nice, icky, sticky, painful rugburns to accompany it. oh well--you nevr notice the pain until the game is over anyway. that should be how everything is. no pain. until you're ready to recognize it. damn...parallels kill me.
my painting is comming along. i got sidetracked when i got home from tour...those mountains were the only thing in my head. so i did a quick "mountain/rocky valley" painting to clear my head. now back to my orchids. girl's night is at church tonight, so i'm hoping to get a lot done there. the part that qorries me is the background. i've avoided it famously. i dont know how to go about it. and i'm running out of things to paint besides that. ill figure something out...i hope.
i love the rain. its such a soothing sound--to hear drips outside your window while you sleep. to know that rain's primary purpose is to bring life to everything outside, and to wash away all the junk in the world. to cleanse the outside and make it more beautiful. it's powerful...thunder is a comfort to me. i know i'm safe in the rain, i guess to some people that sounds silly because storms can kill you. but i've never felt that way about it. thunder for me is more of a Godly presence. His might and power and strength are represented in thunder, His cleansing love and grace are the rain, and His beauty and creation can be seen in the lightning. i love the rain.
i have a book fetish. i'm literally obsessed with books. i have just about 70, and i've read almost all of them...but more over..i've started every one. i go to the bookstore weekly if possible and i cant leave without buying something. i just bought Haunted by Chuck Palahniuk. i'm too afraid toread it at night..its supposed to be a little..intense? but, i havent finished Blue Like Jazz either. nor have i finished Pride and Prejudice, or Citizen Girl, Timeline, The Adventures of Tom Sawyer, Secret Window....the list goes on. i need to buck up and finish these babies.
until we meet again...
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you think a lot................is that one word "alot" or is it "a lot"......did i do it right? cause u may be talking about a "house lot" or u may be talking about a certain number to which you can't count cause you dont have that many fingers.........lets ponder this one
yea............
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