something i knew, something i'll try, something to do, some place to die

i decided i really love fall out boy. i just do.

it really meant a lot to me to see you there last night, when i saw you walk in my heart jumped up into my ears and i almost peed in my pants. you made me more nervous than i ever could be, but you were there and i didnt mess up. you heard me and you heard me at my best. thats a gift. thats how i want you to remember me. thats the image of me i want you leaving with.

life has been surprising recently. i have felt God in ways i never could have imagined, and yet at the same time, my life has not changed. i feel more secure, i feel more trusting about God, and i feel like He hears me now. but--i dont feel any deep sense of obligation about Him. that probably makes me a crappy person.

i know things are hard for you. you are an amazingly strong person. i love you. i've never met a person with more respect for others, himself, and everything around him than you. you have such a strong will and honorable heart. i admire you--and i believe in you completely.

.:I wanna hear what you have to say about me
Hear if you're gonna live without me
I wanna hear what you want
I remember december
And I wanna hear what you have to say about me
Hear if you're gonna live without me
I wanna hear what you want
What the hell do you want?:.