i can take a few tears now and then and just let em out...you said it was ok to cry

last night was so unexcpected. there was a clarity to it. we talked, you told me exactly what i needed to hear-----and you didnt even know you did it. i used to be so angry. so angry all the time---->bitter. bitter that this thing had been taken away from me, so mad that my little piece of heaven was ripped from under me. i shouldnt hae been left out in  the cold, i never wanted to leave--never wanted you to go. but it happened and it was brutal. for me. and for you. things i never knew. things left unsaid for so long...you've given me more than i could ever imagine. you've given me everything, and i hope i can--or have somewhat--repaid you for all that you are. you've given me the chance to heal. the opportunity to understand. a little bit of closure. only God could tell you what you've meant. i could never find the words. thank you for opening my heart and my eyes.