yes--i still visit here every once in a while

hello love.

i'm sorry i havent spoken to you in a while--life has been moving quickly and i'm struggling to keep up. how have you been? are you doing alright? thats good to hear.  sadly, i did not enjoy Nicholas Sparks' most recent novel, True Believer. i am dissapointed to say the least. it seemed like nothing of great consequence happened. you know how you start a book and it takes about 2 or 3 chapters for things to get rolling? that anticipation you feel? thats how i felt the whole book. it might just be me, i dont know.

i bought the hardest 30 days of your life by justin lookadoo and not even a hint by joshua harris. i'm hoping that one of both of these books will help fill up the crater that has sunk itself in the middle of my life. i feel like my life is pretty much worthless...like i never really accomplish anything that matters. and i feel a million miles away from God. so maybe i can find a way to fill the holes...close the space.

.:Judy, could anyone be loved anymore than i love you? does it hurt you too? and Judy, i've been feeling small too long--i love you so, but somethings wrong. and i come running when you want me here--but when you want me to i disapear, Judy. and i cant do this any longer, the vaccum left is so much stronger, Judy:.