sometimes i kind of just hate how i am. can i seriously not just be normal for like 5 f-ing minutes and take the heat of critique like everyone else. can i not just freaking man it up and not give a shit if i did something wrong. no. i can't. i have to cry like a freaking idiot and have my professor just think i'm pathetic. it doesnt even matter. i got a D. who gives a shit. i can redo it and turn it back in. but i'm sitting there and being told how awful it is and having him makes JOKES about how bad some parts are and i'm like screw you asshole. and instead of being pissed off or just wanting to punch him i cry like i'm a 3 year old. like i cry about everything. everyday this week. about everything that happens. Stressed? cry about it--that will solve everything. relationship is not going well? maybe you should unleash a few tears...that'll wash all the crap away. feel like nothing you ever do is good enough even though all you do every day is work your ass off for usually a B, but today..BONUS! you get a D. maybe you should cry in front of your professor.
i hate how i am.
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