today....oh my Lord in heaven...it was NOT a good day at all. THREE times now, in six months this has happened to me, THREE. and everytime it turns out ok, and it's in the end no big deal, but for those few minutes when you dont know whats going to happen...they are the worst moments of my life. i was in tears half the day today....it was not a good day. then i basically ignored everyone and just walked past people i knew bc i didnt want to have to talk to anyone, so i'm sorry. it was a bad day, and i didnt mean to blow anyone off or be rude.
anyways, i know how truly lucky i am. this always turns out ok, everytime, and i know God has been watching my back but i dont understand why it keeps happening...like why does this happen to me? maybe just to make me realize how much i have, i dont know, but i'm thankful as hell that i''ve ok as long as i have. this sucks and i dont want it to hapen anymore, and it comes out of no where and bites you in the ass when you LEAST expect it to. youre never ever ready.
--Let the words of my mouth and the meditations of my heart be acceptable to You, O Lord, my strength and my redeemer. Psalm 19:14--
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