mean girls...its not only a movie

reality: girls are mean. they SUCK. they are BITCHES. they talk about each other, judge one another without any facutal evidence to back up their claims, they hate each other for the most ridiculous of reasons. i hate girls. i knew there was a reasoni stick to guys whenever possible...and it isnt bc any of them are spectacularly hot or anything, theyre SO much easier to talk to. simple. straight forward. REAL.

the rest is just going to be me getting things out...talking to God because its easier for me to write it than think it. so unless you have some urge to know what me and God talk about...i guess the rest is pointless to you.

Ok God...so there's this..."situation" i have...yes, you know the one, with the person and the thing....yeahhhh that one. so anyways, i'm stuck between a rock and a hard place. i dont know what to do. thats where You come in. i know i need to just .:quit:. worrying about it, because in all honesty it does nothing but stress me out, but you know how i am. i have this urge to FIX things, everything. if it's broken, i fix it. so, the thing is....i feel like i need to DO something to get this situation in the right again....but then again, if i do too much...it'll end up equally as bad as if i dont do anything. get what i mean? i figured you did. so...it makes this hard. i know i need to let you work your magic, stretch your proverbial legs and do your thing, but its so hard for me to give up that control...when in reality i dont have much, i cling to the hope that i can help, but i'm not sure i can. so i need You. i need you to help me just let things happen as they will...i know whatever happens, whether i like it or not, is whats best for me. i just wish it would happen already--impatience is something we both know i need work on. so, if you could help me out, give me trust and strength...that would be amazing. patience too...to wait. to understand, to know why and what is going on. i love you, thanks.

--i'm finding myself at a loss for words, and the funny thing is, its ok. all that i need is to be heard and to hear what you would say. word of God speak, would You pour down like rain, washing my eyes to see Your majesty. to be still and know Your in this place, please let me stay and rest in Your holiness. word of God speak.--