16.3.06

if i didnt love you i'd hate you with the fire of 1000 suns

i dont know why we have to be so damn alike. praise jesus we're not getting married or we'd kill each other. you annoy the living hell out of me. and you're too stubborn, too immautre, too ridiculously impatient, too ridiculously like me. we never fight. not for real. and you hate me. nice. and i pretty much in this moment share the feeling. all i want is for you to be alright, to feel okay and be the best friend i love. i know that isnt a feasible option at the moment, but the fact that you're making it so incredibly impossible for anyone, even you're best friend, help, encourage, love, or even just be in your general presence isnt helping you in the slightest. shutting out the few people that care the most about you in the world is the stupidest thing you could do. whatever, it isnt like i could say any of htis to you--i'm a "smart ass, a pain" my very existence seems to irk you right now. sometimes i wish i could take how i feel when i get pissed at you, and go back to that day you wanted me to hit but i couldnt...because i sure as hell could smack your face off right now. you have no idea.

stones taught me to fly

love taught me to cry

come on courage,

teach me to be shy

it's not hard to fall--->

when you float like a cannonball.

--damien rice:cannonball

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