such a time as this part 2

i guess everyone is just changing...i mean friends of mine are doing things i never expected, in part because we had discussed such things and they had given me solid reason to believe those things would never be an issue for them, and they still for the most part are not for me. i have maybe 5 or 6 out of my like million friends who has been able to "prevail through the storms" (NAB) and live up to the commitments they've made to themselves and other people...but the rest..they're just falling down on the job and i dont know why. like i dont want to be the annoying christian girl who tries to bible thump everyone but come on people...lets get our acts together. dont make stupid promises to people when you both know you wont keep them, and dont do dumb rebellious things just for the sake of being rebellious. i know you all can be the people i thought you were, i just dont know how or if i should even try anymore to help you get there. maybe its me, maybe i'm just to prudeish to be friends with some people i know anymore--i mean hey, sorry that i dont agree with or plan on getting drunk ever in high school, having sex ever before i get married or even come anywhere close to it, and i dont think getting high is cool...i love the body and spirit God blessed me with and i intend to the best of my ability to keep them both pure and respect them fully. its not like i think i'm perfect because i have made mistakes i regret seriously now, but i try and i truly am sorry and make an effort to avoid making them again once i realize what i've done. i dont know--society is just so screwed up now that people forget to just be thankful for the fact that they arent mentally handicapped and they have cell phones and they have a good education and they have the cool clothes from abercrombie...we all take them for granted myself included, but i mean most people dont even stop to think, hey--i'm pretty lucky to be breathing the air God has put on this earth. the world's gone to hell in a hand basket and i'm tired of trying to fight it...no one seems to care or even try to change anymore. i just need a renewal of faith in people, i need a miracle to help me set things straight again, i need to have faith.