erase all the pain til its gone

i wanna hold you high and steal your pain away

i keep your photograph and i know it serves me well

i wanna hold you high and steal your pain

because i'm broken when i'm lonesome

and i dont feel right when you're gone away

the worst is over now and we can breathe again [<----not true]

i wanna hold you high--you steal my pain away

theres so much left to learn and no one left to fight

i wanna hold you and steal your pain

cuz i'm broken

when i'm open, and i dont feel like i am strong enough

cuz i'm broken when i'm lonesome

and i dont feel right when you're gone away

[broken^]

Let her cry...if the tears fall down like rain
Let her sing...if it eases all her pain
Let her go...let her walk right out on me
And if the sun comes up tomorrow
Let her be...let her be.

Last night I tried to leave
Cried so much I just
Could not believe

I sat down on my couch
And cried
Yelling oh mama please
Help me
Won’t you hold my hand.

And
Let her cry...if the tears fall down like rain
Let her sing...if it eases all her pain
Let her go...let her walk right out on me
And if the sun comes up tomorrow
Let her be...let her be.

[let her cry:hootie^]

i have no words. none. they are my existence and they are dried up like the brown, crunchy leaves of autumn...useless and fragile. just please God, please just take the pain away. i've run out of solutions. i dont know what else i can do. i need peace...not i want it--i need it. i cant go on for the next year and a half of my life feeling the way i do. i cant stay depressed. i cant survive. i'm not strong. i'm broken and weak and i'm fighting a losing battle. everytime i tihnk things could get better i get slapped in the face and pushed back down...covered in dirt and my own hot tears. i need to stop the tears. the flow endlessly, i need them to dry up, not my words. dry up the tears God. take this away from me. i dont know what else to do. i cant put into words how lost, alone, scared, hurt, cold, empty, useless, pitiful, and cast aside i feel. everything keeps piling up and i have no where to put it all. i'm finished. i'm done. take this away.