Until the day I die
I'll spill my heart for you, for you
Until the day I die
I'll spill my heart for you
As years go by
I race the clock with you
But if you died right now
You know that I'd die to
I'd die too
You remind me of the times
When I knew who I was (I was)
But still the second hand will catch us
Like it always does
We'll make the same mistakes
I'll take the fall for you
I hope you need this now
Cause I know I still do
Until the day I die (Until the day I die)
I'll spill my heart for you
Until the day I die (Until the day I die)
I'll spill my heart for you
Should I bite my tongue?
Until blood soaks my shirt
We'll never fall apart
Tell me why this hurts so much
My hands are at your throat
And [I think I hate you]
But still we'll say, "remember when"
Just like we always do
Just like we always do
Until the day I die (Until the day I die)
I'll spill my heart for you
Until the day I die (Until the day I die)
I'll spill my heart for you
Yeah I'd spill my heart!!!
Yeah I'd spill my heart for you!!!
My hands are at your throat
And I think I hate you
We made the same mistakes
Mistakes like friends do
My hands are at your throat
And I think I hate you
We made the same mistakes
Made the same mistakes
Until the day I die
I'll spill my heart for you, for you
Until the day I die (Until the day I die)
I'll spill my heart for you, for you
Until the day I die (Until the day I die)
I'll spill my heart for you
Until the day I die (Until the day I die)
Until the day I die!!
i'm just so...lost. i see you and remember how i was--how i could laugh. i remember when i was happy...i just cant seem to do it without you. what hurts most is the fact that i cant escape you, and i dont want to...but you seem to be just fine without me. am i ever going to be good enough for someone? ever? will anyone see me the way i dream of being seen? is it so hard...to be seen at all? i'm not perfect--everyone knows this...but i'm so very different from everyone else. i have so much inside of me i want to share with someone--so much to give. its just that no one i have an interest in sharing it all with has any in me. am i really so awful? to be left out in the cold for other things; to be shivered away like a cold wind. i just dont understand why i'm so alone. why i feel so alone...so incomplete. i'm broken inside and no one can fix me or even has the courage to try. i feel like my whole life is spent waiting on this miracle to happen--waiting for someone to notice me and everything that i am, good and bad. waiting to be good enough for someone to appreciate--and put first. is it too much to ask? to be someone's priority? i dont think so. i make everyone mine...i'm just not anyone else's. why is it so hard to make the effort for me? to make the time i deserve...to do little things for me, to call...to surprise me. to be brave on the rocks for me, to help me be brave. to lead me and know when to fall back beside me...to love me and show me all the time, in everything you say, and do, and are. it isnt that much to ask--at least i dont think so. i'm just so damn tired of being the one who has to sit and wait. why cant i just find someone who cares? who i can love back. who i can be everything to. who i can always make happy, even when i make him mad. to know someone adores everything about me and thinks i'm incomparable. i want to believe so badly...but i'm losing hope with each passing day, will anyone ever see me? will the person i'm meant to love ever come? i hope so...because the one i want doesnt need me anymore...and i'm so tired of hurting in vain.
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