you are my hero

where do you even begin to describe a feeling like this? i mean it isnt even really just one feeling, its hundreds all squished up inside me, all trying to escape from me at once. i feel sad, angry, hopeful, overwhelmed, overjoyed, thankful, sorrowful, i could just go on and on. i can never begin to imagine losing my dad, but i will sooner or later, i'm just thankful it isnt now. i am so....i cant even find a word to describe it, but ecstatic is an alright word, about you. we can move on from our parting, the rift is closed....i can be with you again. its like an amazing weight is gone and we're alright again. i love you so much, like i cant even tell you what being your friend has meant to me, and not having you around for so long was awful...i'm just so sorry it took this for us to overcome things. i know you already know all this but i mean anytime you need anyone, you come running to me and i'll be here ok? 3 am and your feeling sad? call me or just come over and ring my doorbell...its not like we live far away...you know you wont have to go through this alone but i just want you to know how much i love you and that your and your family will always be with my in my prayers...you are my hero for handling this the way you are, i could never be this strong